23 October 2008

{why do the bad things always find there way to my door?}

i want to scream. cry. pound the floor with my fists. i honestly dont understand why the news is ALWAYS bad. ALWAYS. even when its not bad, its never good. mediocre at best. i am just so furious with everything i dont know where to begin. im not satisfied with this current state. this condition that i am in. i just hate every moment of it. its like i keep running and go absolutely NOWHERE. and i am sick. and i am tired. and my feet hurt. my soles are worn thin. i feel helpless and weak and i have no reason for why....no explaination because it never gets better.

today i found out i will no longer be receiving a scholarship through general motors. they have eliminated that program...thus, i have to come up with another $1,000 for next semester. this, however, is just the beginning. if this continue the way that they are going, my dad says that he is going to lose his job. if general motors decides to tank, my father will no longer be able to support us in the way that we live right now. so what? we have to make a few sacrifices right? well, this scares the heck out of me. this country is on its way down the tubes. seriously. the greed. deceite. the money whores and war mongers. THIS WORLD IS GOING TO HELL. FALLING TO RUINS. and the thing that sucks, is that this "happy-go-lucky-american-dream" that we all paint pictures of in our minds, IS NONEXISTANT...or a fading trend.

wake up america! turn your back on God.....He is turning His back on us. seriously. we need to wake up. we are destined for disaster.

can i take this moment to say that i honestly hate humanity? i used to show compassion and love....thats what i am supposed to do right? i have no faith in mankind whatsoever and i want to laugh in the faces of those who do. i am sorry if i am offending anyone right now, but seriously...if we spent as much time and energy on THINGS THAT MATTER...on maybe Gods purpose for this hellish-creation....then maybe we wouldnt be in the mess that we are in! i hate people and their selfishness. they will all burn in hell. and i only fear is that i fall short of His purpose and join those hypocritical monsters who will wallow in their filth. SICK.

i mean, come on. NO ONE is better than the next guy. yet we prance around thinking we are the next best thing since sliced bread. i want to slap you in the face for even letting that thought cross your mind! i am nowhere near perfect. not even a fraction. but this isnt about me. its about God. seriously. neither one of the candidates can save you! NOT OBAMA! NOT MCCAIN! this nation needs to wake up and realize they need SERIOUS help that NO MAN can fix. does it honestly have to get SO BAD before we do anything about it? obviously not! look at 911. how niave we were then and how easily the majority of society has FORGOTTEN!

i am a pretty open-minded person...but i just see this generation turning into sodom&gomorah {forgive my spelling} our standards have been completely thrown out the window. its not hard to realize that man cannot produce with man! there is a reason for that! DUH!!!!! get over your feelings. get over your emotions. get over your freakin psycho-babble. TREND IS TOO EASY TO FOLLOW. i am so sick of society skirting around "ISSUES" trying to please everyone. YOULL BURN IN HELL. burn. and honestly i dont know what has brought all of this upon me....but i cant take it anymore...i cant keep winking an eye at things because i believe God is gonna let us kill ourselves. i believe that he is going to let us destroy EVERYTHING. we are well on our way. i NEVER want to be lots wife and look back. I NEVER want to look back at that past, former way of living. all it did was cause her death.

IF YOU TRY TO PRODUCE THINGS WITHOUT A LEGIT FATHER, YOULL ONLY CREATE A BASTARD SON. I WILL NOT LET MY LIFE BECOME A BASTARD SON.

sorry for my language...but i am rather heated. i am just so sick. sick of what we've become. and how easily/quickly the spiral downward is....

seriously....WAKE UP.

2 comments:

c.montgomery said...

you said exactly what i feel~ its so pathetic. this world is gross, and i can't imagine the ache that God has to feel looking at this mess we have created. as soon as i heard all of the crap going on with GM i thought of your dad and i want ya to know that we keep you guys in ours prayers with the situation for sure. danny knows guys who work there right now and i don't think things are going well for them either. its a scary mess. danny was almost a part of that. everything just seems to go so wrong. things seem to just never work out, its always one mess after the next. you have both candidates saying how they're going to fix things, its all bull. both of them. i don't think the "american dream" exists anymore, and you have someone like obama who just wants to take the money you work hard for and give it to the low life pig who does nothing to deserve it. he wants to spread the wealth but not create new money. its just a mess danielle. i avoid the news, i get so livid and i'm tired, i'm tired of hearing about everything i'm tired of the political crap, i frankly have gotten to the point where i don't give a.. you know what who's president. who really cares?! they're slowly taking our rights anyway. this country is going to hell in a hand basket. i feel the same about humanity too by the way. that's weird you feel the same right now because just yesterday i was telling danny how i am just sick of the world, i'm sick of people, i'm sick of everything.

Jacque-O said...

I agree with most things said in this post. Our world has forgotton the reason for living. Our own dollar bill says "In God We Trust"
and yet we have fallen away from the truth and reason for why we are here. Materials have become priority. Everything is going so wrong so fast and people seem to be blinded. I hate that people think one politician can change any of this, really I'm thinking only God can. I try to remind myself that he has a plan but man its scary. It makes me really think If I want to eventually have children, would i want to bring them up in this world.
Anyway, Its good to know there are others around the world feeling scared and gripping tightly to their faith!
I'll keep you and your family in my prayers, hang in there.. He has a plan.