26 September 2007

innocense.

currently i sit, watching my not-quite-a-year-yet cousin crawl across my floor. he can almost walk. it seems like such a simplistic and natural thing, though its hard to believe at one time that was me, grasping onto table edges and my tiny legs wobbling to and fro. ironically, at times i feel as though i revert back to this stage in my life. going, going, going until i realize that i actually might fall down, i get scared and grip onto something secure as fast as i can. what if that security was never there? what if it simply fell beneath me? i know i've felt that. and fell hard. but heres is the thing, i never want to be in that state of fear again. why is it so difficult for some of us to be confident? its a human condition that i honestly cant fathom. like my little cousin, we even embrace this fear before we reach the age of one. if only we wouldnt hold back, then what great things could we honestly accomplish? im sure mountains could be moved. it sounds cliche, but really...if we allowed NOTHING to hold us back, tie us down, stunt our couriosty....what all could we do? amazing things. i'm sure of it.

a quick update as far as my life goes...

college is taking a toll out of me. like i said i am constantly moving. thank god we dont have to physically tell ourselves to breathe, or else i would have forgotten and be dead right now. as i may have mentioned before, i am taking 4 classes this semester [sounds easy right?...wrong] on mondays i drive to saginaw [1.5 hour drive both ways] for my american dialect class. its rather interesting, but i feel like i dont know quite where i stand grade-wise in the class. then tuesdays i have childrens literature. this is absolutely my favorite class i think. we read kids books and have fun with my estatic teacher. wednesdays i dont have class....so i finally get a day off. thursdays is my art class...its okay actually, at first i was excited but has no longer been fun or challenging...just time consuming mostly, and the teacher is dull so those 4-hour sessions go by very slow. now my friday/saturday class [yes, weekends] is absolutely INSANE. this is one of my first method courses for the teaching program. its the social studies one and we must do field work for it...which means that every friday morning i get to teach 3rd-graders at an elementary school for a few hours then drive back to the college (about a 30 minute drive or so) and sit in my social studies class til 8:30pm (UGH!!! so much for friday night) THEN on top of it all, i have to be back to school by 830am saturday morning for another 4-hours or so....oh yeah...did i fail to mention, im still working during all of this? so i guess i have a good excuse not to have updated in awhile, agreed?

i hope all is well with the rest of you. i promise to post some pictures as soon as i can. some of my lesson plans have some awesome artwork that i have created, so i will try to take pictures of them and post them.

oh! and i forgot. i've been cooking a ton lately. baking actually. god....hello jelly belly. hahaha.....but it all tastes so good!

peace.love.danielle.

7 comments:

c.montgomery said...

I have been cooking too!I have learned that I really don't like it... I would rather make cookies. I made chicken the other day and I was so paranoid of it being raw I couldn't even bring myself to eat it... and it was definitely cooked. gosh I dwell on things too much and then they mess me up! ANYWAY! I am rambling about chicken... I miss you! I want to hang out, just me and you, its been so long! We'll just ditch the boys. haha I know we're coming into town on Saturday, I know Corey works but you and I could get together if you're not busy! Oh and my sister is having a boy over... :o) so if we hang out you could meet him. He's a cute kid! Anyway I will let you know for sure if we're in town Saturday or whatever, but if you can't do something then, we will figure out a time next week because I know I'll be in Port Huron sometime during the week. Talk to ya lata!

lost teeth said...

oh hang in there! i felt the same way when i was in college, but it doesn't last forever! :)

caisee said...

do you wanna' meet at maybe Barnes & Noble on Saturday around 1:30 or 2? Then we can figure out something to do from there!

c.montgomery said...

Hey there! Yes I got your message I'm sorry I totally forgot to call you back! My cell phone doesn't have service here so sometimes it doesn't even ring. Anywho, its totally fine! We will figure out a good day to hang out and I might be in town on Thursday so I will let you know! Talk to ya lata, hope ya had a blasty-blast workin!

c.montgomery said...

Hey!! I just got your message, I think you called yesterday? My phone is being a pain in the butt and it wasn't ringing. It would go to silent all on its own. Anywho though, I'm not sure exactly if tomorrow will work, I will be in Port Huron but my mom and dad needed me to take pictures of some stuff for them and I don't know how long that will take. Danny and I are coming into town this weekend though if you're not busy on Friday night or Saturday night. I will see though how long my mom and dad need me and tomorrow might work! I'll get back to ya!!

c.montgomery said...

friday (today) sounds really good to me! do you guys just wanna' go get coffee again?? bring out your crazy side. hahaha lemme' know, i'll give ya a call in a little bit.

c.montgomery said...

hey there! yes, we are coming to port huron tonight. i'm not sure what time we'll be there, but 8:30 is probably safe time. We should be there before that, but it depends on when Danny gets out of work and stuff like that. Is there anything specific you guys want to do? We can go to Barnes & Noble for coffee or we can go to my house. Up to you! Lemme' know!!